It’s important to guard your heart. Because that will determine the course of your life.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of, distress lately. I’ve distanced myself from people I thought would be in my corner through the weird times and the bad times. Not only is it important for me to guard my heart with possible interests or people I might like more than a friend. But it’s also very vital that I guard my heart with my friends as well.
There was a time where I wanted and still want to be a better person. I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not a good person. I may try to be, but I am truly not. So I started praying that God grants me the fruits of the spirit. It’s a hard process but in order for me to be who I want to be who IN GOD. I have to learn to acquire those aspects to be an actual Christian… I’ve come to the realization that I have opened doors that I now cannot shut. With my friends. In some areas I’ve been really honest. But my approach may have seemed to just like call them out just to call them out. No. Those weren’t my intentions. When I do so, I truly believe that they need to work on they way they are in certain areas. But somehow, it seems they think they can just say whatever they want, I have not vocalized that to them, but that is due to the distancing myself… But, what I mentioned about the fruits of the Spirit, one of those is Joy, and if I would continue to be around certain people, that joy would cease to exist. Sometimes, God calls us to lay certain things down and our own beliefs and our own way of doing things, to be a true Christian we have to yearn for a clean heart. You can’t continue to have people getting upset with you, if you do, I know for me, I would want to make things right. I personally aspire to be a true pure Christian. Not only that, but it seems that a lot of my friendships have been one sided. I’ve voiced what I’m feeling, and nothing has been done. I have personally seen a spiritual and a natural growth going on. So I don’t feel I am wrong in this area. If I’m wrong, I’m wrong. But everyone thinks they’re right, don’t they? Lol that’s how human nature is. We’re selfish. We’re prideful. It’s definitely hard to admit when we’re wrong. Or have to apologize. Which I personally think is pitiful. It’s pathetic. Like I said, I want to be a better Christian. Humbling ourselves, looking for forgiveness. Rising above our current circumstances, meaning, constantly looking for change. We are made to change who we are. Life is a learning process. Learning, means leaving room for failure. We’re too prideful to admit that we’re wrong at times. Helllloooooo. If we were made perfect the world wouldn’t have troubles in the world. Disagreements, wars, fighting. Grief. There would be nothing to worry about if we were perfect.
When I look at a Christian, I look for certain aspects and characteristics one should have.
My question is to ask yourself, what can I do to be a better version of me?
To think you can love God without being changed by Him, is to think you can jump into the ocean and not get wet. To really love Him, you must understand that your life is going to be wrecked by Him, and built again into something beautiful, something lasting.
When you go through trials and tribulations, it is an opportunity for you to grow. – James 1:3.